You have held me in limbo for these two plus years now and I have let you,

Call it infatuation, call it imagination, call it obsession, and call it whatever,

My every thought waking or sleeping has circled around you in some form or fashion,

I have been reeling from it to the point of exhaustion; I’ve lost weight, lost sleep,

And at times thought I would lose my mind, but I’m still here, and sadly you are not,

I have prayed and cried, and pleaded, decreed, declared, released, prayed, God’s will be done,

So at this point since I know He loves us both, I have to believe that this is the best thing.

Love and commitment at least in my view requires more,

It isn’t necessarily 24/7 attention, but sometimes it is,

It isn’t 24/7 patience, but sometimes it is,

It isn’t 24/7 forgiveness, but sometimes it is.

Everyone’s path is different, and we must each walk our own at our own pace

If by grace we are blessed to walk alongside someone wonderful for a while

It is definitely worth enduring their humanity

To touch that spark of divinity inside that makes them truly unique, and of purpose in this world.

Some of us stumble getting to our purpose; some of us falter, fall or fail,

But if we are trying at all to please God and serve our fellow human beings

Some of that should be expected; after all we are flesh and blood.

I hope someday I get a chance to walk beside you once again, you are wonderful,

And I will miss the daily opportunity to talk and listen, and learn with you and from you,

Even the hard things taught me to appreciate and be thankful for every gift God gives,

If they are brief they are more precious, and sometimes once you see it they are gone.

I pray to fulfill my 120, and hope that somewhere on this journey,

There will be another chapter titled, “You and I”.

This one seemed too short, and the love it seemed too strong, so perhaps there is another to be written Love can only hope and dream.

Take Care, my beauty, take care.