I'm amazed that every time I post here, which isn't so much lately that something significant has happened in the cosmos or at least in my part of the universe. Life truly is a journey. When you get on the road, you can try to map your way, even if its a path you think feels somewhat familiar you can lose your way or get turned around. Especially in the dark, I know my sense of direction is not as sharp.

Day after day sometimes its quiet. On our side. God, however, never slumbers or sleeps, He is forever working on the behalf of those that love Him. He even works on behalf of those that don't. God is always reaching out to us, loving us, wooing us, and graciously working things out for our good. Yes, He hopes we will realize it was Him and praise Him, but He does it just because like a loving Father, He made us and wants our best.

Sometimes I notice I am like an ungrateful teenager, very full of myself, very oblivious to anything or anyone but my agenda. OMG!!! I saw this yesterday, and had to remark to myself and God," I must get past this."
If there is one thing I have learned in my years on the planet it is that when I feel the most alone, God is right there. Also, when I think I really need people, I really need Him.

Life never seems right if we are just merely going through the motions, whether its with our spouse/partner, or especially in our walk with God. I've said so much here about love and commitment, but I really need to focus on  my heart toward God. If I do that first my heart toward my partner whoever she may be, for right now on my journey, it does not appear it will be Natalie, but I'm trying to get my heart right for even us being friends and perhaps still accomplishing as friends some of the things we were called to do together. We have always been from a different tribe of people; people who have covenant that surpasses what other people are accustomed to or have known in their relationships. Most people tend to treat their family, friends and covenant relationships like fast food; quick and cheap and throw away. I have never been that way and thankfully Natalie isn't either.

I love hard and I love forever. Here I am Lord, use me as you see fit, the answer is still YES!!!