There's been a huge cosmic shift in the universe, well, at least my universe! I realize that what the Book of Proverbs says in the verse, "a merry heart does good like a medicine, but a broken spirit dries the bones", is so true. I've struggled for years with aches and pains from old injuries, but the ache I've carried the last two and a half years from what I call the Human Wars, has been unparalleled. It has affected my health mentally and physically and weight more than I can express. On my way home yesterday after visiting with my former partner and sharing about the extended family, I felt this sigh of relief like a load had been lifted. I knew in my spirit, heart and mind I would always love her and them deeply, but I was finally free from that excruciating, nearly debilitating grief that accompanied our breakup. So much happened  in the last five years, and last two and a half where the on again-off again, she loves me, she loves me not or God NO, she loves her drama nearly did me in. Did you hear me? I said, "I'm FREE!" not a ,"Yea, I'm FREE." where I'm glad to be done, no, quite the opposite. I'm glad she is happy, my kids/her kids are safe, and for the most part trying to get their lives together. I'm glad my grandbabies are good, and finally I'm at peace with all of it. It has taken so long for me to get to this point. I was thrilled to finally be in love when we came together in 2006, it truly was beautiful!!! I didn't want to let her or the kids go, despite the hard stuff. But now that we are all getting in a better place, and we are learning how to be really good friends and enjoy and support each other from a comfortable distance, its good. Some loves are not forever, but some are. Some friends are not forever, but some are. Thankfully, we have both, but on a different level than before and I'm good with that at last. What does the old hymn say? "It Is Well With My Soul". Indeed.